Sorry about the typos yesterday!

That's what happens when I use my phone to update.
Last night at dinner I got grilled shrimp on a bed of salad, only 550 cal. I really wanted the filet, but it was 1000 cal! We did get creme brûlée for dessert. It was the lowest one on the menu. Only 350 cal and we split it.
I am back on the horse today. Breakfast was an english muffin and homemade mocha. Lunch was turkey sand, goldfish and a 1/4 cup of Zarda beans. Dinner is going to be beef stew and french bread. I will have 100 cal left for butter on my bread or a little snack!

Eating lots of yummy meals

But they haven't been on my diet. I ate out 5 meals this weekend. We were out of town. And I had 4 drinks Saturday night. No way am I weighing until Friday!

Today is my birthday. Lee always makes me breakfast and he made me croissant French toast stuffed with nutella. It was yummy but like 450 calories! I just had chili for lunch but plan in Houlihans for dinner. I live the filet there but should get grilled chicken or shrimp. I gave noticed I get more of a sweet tooth and want to snack more when I don't diet as heavily.

163!

I am not planning on weighing in until next Friday. I am hoping to be a few pounds less, but I said my goal was 163 by next Friday so I need to stick with that. 15 pounds lost and I have 2 pairs of jeans in size 10 I am wearing, though they are a little tight around the waist. Yesterday was about 1500 calories, not the greatest but could be worse for eating out. Breakfast was a banana with 1 T cocoa almond spread. I can't wait to use the rest of it up so I can open a jar of nutella. Lunch - Cup of lobster bisque, 1 biscuit, 4 oz filet, 2 asparagus spears, and mashed potatoes. My friend Michelle wanted to split a dessert and the ice cream was really good, so I had about 1/2 a scoop of that. Dinner- I made chicken tenders: chicken breasts cut up, dipped in light ranch and rolled in cornflakes crumbs and then baked. I ate a chicken breast worth of those, with 2 roasted carrots and 1/2 a yukon gold potato. We were going to have that chicken leftover on salads tonight, but I accidently left the pan of chicken on the counter overnight so I had to throw it out. Ugh! Today- Breakfast - homemade mocha, eng muffin with 1 T cocoa almond spread. Lunch- Turkey sandwich and 1/2 a serving of triscuits. Hershey kiss Dinner- Homemade pizza. Dough is rising now, and then topping with mozz and turkey pepperoni. Probably a skinny cow cluster for dessert. At 1200 if this is all I eat.

I think I figured out my headache issue

Truvia! I had not used it when I was pregnant and breastfeeding and just bought a box 2 weeks ago. I realized I was only getting headaches on the days I was drinking coffee. Then on Monday I had a green tea with truvia and got a headache 10 min later. So today I used splenda in my coffee and no headache! Today I had an english muffin sandwich with an egg and cheese. I had a Trader Joe's blueberry breakfast bar for a snack. Lunch was my usual turkey sandwich and a few mini triscuits. I had a homemade mocha for a snack. Dinner was 1 piece of toast, 2 eggs and 1/2 a pancake. I am having another skinny cow cluster for dessert. The dark chocolate ones are so good! 1225 today. Lee has been dieting and doing p90x for 2 1/2 weeks and has lost 9 pounds. It was taken me 2 1/2 months to lose 14 pounds! Gotta love that. I am walking into field of dieting landmines the next few days. I am having lunch at The Bristol with my friend Michelle tomorrow. Then we will probably go out this weekend, plus on my birthday Monday. I want to be able to be down to 163 by next Friday, even with all the eating.

164 this morning

Yesterday I had 1180 cal. Breakfast was 2 pieced of toast. Lunch a turkey wrap from Jasons deli for 350 cal and baked chips. Dinner was roast, carrots and potatoes. Snack was skinny cow clusters.

I totally binged last night

Well, for me anyone. I had a piece of toast and 2 graham crackers with cocoa almond spread at about 9 o clock. That with my string cheese put me up to 1900 cal for the day! This morning I had 2 pieces of toast with light margarine for breakfast and water. Lunch was a turkey and cheddar sandwich on a deli flat. I also had 1/2 ounce of swiss cheese and 4 townhouse crackers. Dinner is going to be Pulled pork sandwich and cauliflower gratin. I am making some baked fries for Kellen and Lee, but I don't know that I will have any. That leaves me with 200 calories to play with, Maybe a few fries or some hot cocoa for dessert. I need to start drinking green tea again. I think I will have 2 cups as a snack this afternoon.

Hallelujah!

I finally got my period! It was 12 days late and I was terrified that I was pregnant, even though I took a test last week. It is not a baby I am scared of, but packing on 50 pounds on top of this! If we have a 3rd, we are not until I have lost all my weight. Yesterday I did great. I had a bunch of calories at the end of the night, and ate 3 oreos, and half a choco taco (my mom brought them over for Kellen's bday). I still ended at 1167. Today, not so good. I got a headache this afternoon. I don't know what my deal is. I am 300 over, and am starving and sickly feeling, plus I have cramps, so I will probably have a piece of toast in a few minutes. Breakfast was an english muffin and mocha, lunch was half of a turkey sandwich from Firehoue subs and triscuits (this lunch is what messed me up). Dinner was a baked potato and a tiny bit of pulled pork. I am not much of a pork fan, but Lee smoked some pork this fall so it was an easy dinner to pull out of the freezer. For snacks I had light string cheese and some darj chocolate, plus a granola bar. I think all that chocolate last night brought my cravings back!

165 today

This is the lowest I have been in a year, but I still have soooo much weight I want to lose. I was looking at pictures from Christmas at my Grandma's today and I look pregnant in them! The other good news is a found a great pair of jeans at Banana Republic in early December and bought a size 14. They were on sale 30% off this week and I got two pairs, a size 10 and 12. They are so comfortable. They were 55 dollars but I figure since I am only buying 1 pair in each size, that isn't too bad. Better than buying 2 pairs for 25 that are just ok. They both fit, but I have a huge muffin top in the 10's! I think if I lose 7-10 more pounds then I will be able to wear those comfortably. Yesterday I ended up at 1200. Yay! Today for breakfast I had 1 1/3 biscuit and 1 egg. It was Kellen's bday and that is what he wanted for breakfast. I made him bacon but I did not eat any. Lunch- Firehouse subs. I split a briskit sandwich with Lee and ate about 1/3 of a bag of chips that I shared with Kellen. I also ate 1/4 of a free turkey sandwich they sent us home with because it was Kellen's birthday. Dinner- I told Kellen he could pick anywhere he wanted to go for dinner or I would make him something, and he picked spagetti and meatballs! I ate 1 serving of spaghetti with red sauce and 1 turkey meatball. I did have 3 bites of cake. I think with the cake, I am at 1300 max. Not bad if I went to a restaurant, too! I want to get down into the 150's so bad...

I really wanted to weigh today...

but then I would have had to take my walking cast off, so it kept me from doing it! I am going to weight in Friday. I have not weight in since Monday. I don't feel thinner, but we will see. Yesterday I ended right at 1200. I just need to do that everyday! Today- Breakfast- Caramel mocha and one piece of toast with cocoa almond spread (1/2 T) Lunch - Taco salad. Lettuce, taco meat, beans, 1/8 cup cheese, light sour cream and 1 serving of chips. Dinner- Chicken fajitas. I only have 475 calories left, and that has to include dinner, so probably no snacking for me. I am getting a 2nd opinion on my foot Tuesday. I am terrified he is going to say surgery as well. I am thinking that after the surgery I will not lose weight very easily since I won't be moving around much!

Ended at 1400 yesterday

Not bad for binging on pita chips. I was actually thinking I did the exact same thing on this blog 3 years ago, but I would have to go back and check! For dinner last night I just had soup and one piece of bread. Today - Trader Joe's Apple Cereal bar (140 cal) and a homemade caramel mocha (I make it with 1/2 cup milk, 1/2 cup coffee, 2 packets truvia, 1/2T unsweetened cocoa, and 1 T sf caramel syrup). Lunch- 2 Mac and Cheese muffins. 130 cal each. I got this recipe from Family fun magazine or Parenting. It is pasta, cheddar and parmesan cheese, bread crumbs, ground turkey and broccoli, with a drizzle of olive oil. I think the would be better if you left out the turkey and just added more veggies. Maybe some shredded carrot and red pepper. I had a small salad with fugi apple dressing and cranberries. Dinner- Leftovers tonight. Kellen and I will probably choose soup and bread, Lee will probably have tacos. I should have about 130 calories left to snack. Maybe some hot cocoa tonight. It is cold!

I just downed 1/2 a bag of cinnamon pita chips

I have another migraine - 2 in 3 days. Both days I got it when I bent my head over really fast reaching for something on the floor. Sunday was worse, but today I have nausea and I am headachy, and it won't disappear until I go to bed. When I have nausea, eating usually makes me feel a little better (hence why I gain so much weight while pregnant). So I had a snack, and did not weigh it on my kitchen scale. Mistake! I should not have eaten out of the bag because next thing I know, I ate 450 calories of pita chips. In a few minutes I am going to wake up Lila so we can run to Target before I pick Kellen up from preschool and I am so wanting to get a mocha from Starbucks. 170 calories. It's like I keep eating to find the magical cure to make my headache go away, but the only thing that helps is sleep!

Trying not to weigh until Friday

I get a little obsessed and want to weigh every day or every other day and then I get bummed when the number is not where I want it to be. When I am not dieting (when is that?) I try to just weigh on Fridays. I am going to wait until Friday this week to weigh in and hope that I dropped a couple of pounds! Here is today: Breakfast- a banana with a 1/2 T of TJ's cocoa almond spread and water Lunch- BBQ chicken sandwich - again. Last one! Dinner- Vegetable Cheese soup and homemade bread. Once I put in lunch or dinner, we'll see if I have any extra calories for snacks. I did not eat breakfast until 8:45 even though I had been up for 2 hours. I have been doing that for about a week and I think it is helping! Yesterday I still had a little headache and had to eat right away and I struggled with snacking all day!

This 1200 thing really isn't working out

I changed my fitness pal app to 1200 from 1250 and I haven't met it the last two days! Today I ate 1320 calories, but I am calling it a success because I have had the munchies all day. Breakfast - Egg cheese english muffin sandwich Lunch- Shredded bbq chicken sandwich with cheddar Snack - Delmonte brown sugar and cinnamon peach fruit cup. So good and only 70 calories! Dinner- 2 tacos (we use La Tiara brand shells. They are very thin and only 35 calories each) 1/2 a serving of tortilla chips, and homemade black beans on a bed of lettuce. Snack - 1/4 of a small kids ice cream cup (I only ate 20 calories worth)

166

So I lose 3 pounds last week, but really I think it is just because I starting taking my water pills again. I was really wanting to get down to 158 by the end of January, which would mean a 20 pound loss since November. I don't know that I can lose 8 pounds in 2 weeks, but I will be very happy if I can get to 160. Saturday night when we went out, I ate a lot of our crab dip, a side salad, with dressing on the side (I dipped my fork in it) and only 1/2 a crab cake. I was so full. I did have a glass of wine, too. My food for yesterday: Breakfast - 100 calorie English muffin with peanut butter and homemade caramal mocha. We found this weird powered Peanut Butter powder at the store. All the fat and oil is pressed out. You can put it in a protein shake powedered, which Lee did and he liked. You can also add water and it makes peanut butter. It really wasn't that bad, but I wouldn't make a sandwich with it. It only has 45 calories for 2 Tablespoons. Lunch- Leftover crab cakes with carrots, broccoli, green beans and cauliflower. 1/2 a piece of sourdough bread I had a cherry limeade at Kellen's birthday party. It is made with diet 7 up but has sugar and cherries in it, so it has some calories. Dinner- Shredded bbq chicken in crockpot, on a hamburger bun with 1/2 an ounce of cheddar. I ended yesterday at 1275. I had an awful migrain and laid down at about 7:30 so ate nothing else.

I'm going to blow it today

We are going out to dinner tonight and using a Groupon for Rumors Steakhouse. I have been dying to try their spinach and crab dip with wonton chips. I know it has a lot of calories, but I really want to try it. I love their crab cakes, so that is what I am getting for my entree. I will either get a side salad or veggie to go along with it. I am going to try to skip the wine. Although I just remembered they have great bread. I think I am just going to get what I want. The plan next week is to lower my calories down to 1200. As long as I do it gradually, it doesn't seem too hard. I think I was eating 1400 in December, and that's when I was actually losing weight! Today- Breakfast - 2 pieces of toast and water Lunch -leftover steamed rice and sesame chicken I am making Kellen's birthday cake and I won't lie I had a little icing today.

A little over today...1315!

I blame the cookies that I made! I ended up eating 2 and some dough. But I did great the rest of the day.
Breakfast- homemade mocha and one piece toast
Lunch- turkey sandwich on 100 cal thin
Dinner- salad, 2 pieces of frozen thin crust pizza.
No more working out at all for me for 3 weeks. I need to wear a boot all the time and hope I won't end up with surgery.

I gotta stop eating cookie dough!

Kellen's birthday party is Sunday and I am making decorated sugar cookies to put in the kiddie good bags. I have eaten one cookie, and probably enough dough for a cookie. They are not decorated yet, so at least I didn't eat icing. I still need to make his cake today. Declaring that I am finished! So I don't eat anymore.

A yummy breakfast

So I ate a little more for breakfast than I usually do, 250 calories, but it was such a treat! I made myself a salted caramel mocha (with 1% milk and cocoa powder) and I had one piece of wheat toast with 1 1/2 teaspoons, Trader Joe's cocoa almond spread (like nutella but not as good). With the snowy weather, I was dying for a coffee drink. Lunch was Turkey Tetrazzini. Again. Can you tell we eat leftovers until the die? Dinner will be steamed white rice, broccoli, and a new crockpot recipe I am trying, sesame chicken. That should leave me with 70 calories left, since my goal is 1250. I may eat less rice so I can have a little something for dessert. Bad news on my fractured foot. I went to the orthopedic doctor today and I have torn ligaments and a fracture. It is called a lisfranc injury. You can read more about it here: http://orthoinfo.aaos.org/topic.cfm?topic=A00162 I am in a boot for 3 weeks and then we will see. He said I may need surgery, but I would be on crutches for 8 weeks. I don't know how a stay at home mom can take care of two kids on crutches! Either way, it looks like my foot may never be the same. I am hoping I don't get chronic pain or arthritis in the joint later. I just want to be able to run again!

Today ended with 1211.

I had light string cheese as a snack. Dinner was 2 eggs and 2 pieces of toast. My last snack was one mini trader joes gingerbread man. I wanted hot cocoa but I am too tired to make it. I am hungry but I am in bed reading and plan on going to sleep soon.

1220 yesterday

I am proud of myself for keeping at it, especially since I am not really losing weight. I took my water pills yesterday and am back down to 167, and I can get my ring off. I don't know how I am going to get rid of this water for good! I also did a 30 min pilates video last night while Lee was giving Kellen a bath. Lila went to bed at 6:30 so I was able to have some time to myself. I have been getting so tired at night. I don't know if I have less energy because I am so hungry or what. Today: Breakfast - steel cut oatmeal with brown sugar Lunch - Turkey tettrazini and pita chips, 1 hershey kiss Dinner- not sure yet. I am on my own tonight, so most of the time I make eggs and toast if Lee is gone. But I may finish off the tettrazini or have a Lean Cuisine pizza. I was craving pizza for lunch. I have 475 calories left, so I need to probably have the pizza or eggs.

I made some good choices!

I went to lunch with my friend Carrie today, and I really wanted a grilled chicken sandwich or a chicken caesar salad, but I ordered a grilled chicken breast instead. I usually eat what I want at restaurants, since I only go to one maybe once a week, but I really wanted to stay on my diet since I am up to 169.4! I was very swollen when I was pregnant and post partum. My ob gave my water pills in the middle of November and ran out on Thursday. I have a 3 week script left, but I wanted to see what happened when I went off. Now I know! My weight is going up even thought I am eating great! I normally would be losing 2ish pounds a week eating 1200 calories. My wedding ring, which I just got back on a month ago, is super tight and I cannot take it off and my face is puffy. So...I feel a little better about my weight, but I don't know if I am going to have to buy these on the black market or what when I run out! My food today should end at exactly 1250 calories. Breakfast - English muffin, 1 egg, 1/2 ounce cheddar cheese Lunch - Grilled chicken breast, cilantro rice, fajita vegetables Dinner- White chicken chili and tortilla chips.

My breakfast plan

I am going to start making in effort to do two things differently. The first one is to eat breakfast later in the morning. Normally I eat breakfast a few hours I wake up. When I am pregnant, I get sick if I don't eat first thing in the morning and I have continued doing that since Lila was born. But I am not starving first thing, so I am going to try to eat around 8:30 or so. This way, I won't feel like I have to eat lunch at 11 because I have been starving since 9. Pushing lunch back my help my urge to snack. I did it yesterday and today, and so far it worked out well! I also am going to try to eat more protein with breakfast. Most of the time I eat an english muffin with butter, and that is eat. I am going to eat more eggs and see what else I can come up with. I also switch from real butter to a low calorie margarine, which is a big deal for me! We have been eating real butter for years, but right now every calorie counts! I ended yesterday with 1200 calories. My snacks were a yogurt parfait and a hot cocoa. I make it with 1% milk, truvia, and Ghiradelli unsweetened cocoa powder. And I broke my promise of not weighing today. I am up another 1/2 a pound. I have a theory about that, and I will write about it later today.

I gotta stop weighing myself everyday!

In the mornings I will wake up and "feel" like I have lost weight, but this week I have not! I am up to 169 despite the great job I did dieting this week. Then I get discouraged that I will be fat forever. My period should start tomorrow,so I know I am just bloated. I am actually proud of myself for not giving in to my usual cravings of chips and brownies. My food for today should come in at 1200 or 1250 calories. I will let you know tomorrow.:) So far- Breakfast: Trader Joe's Steelcut oatmeal with brownsugar Lunch: Turkey sandwich on 100 calories sandwich thin and strawberries. Dinner will be white chicken chili and tortilla chips. I should be left with 400 calories for snacks, so I will probably have a yogurt parfait and hot cocoa or homemade mocha at some point. I really want to lower my calories down to 1200 this month, but I am just getting used to 1250. I try to lower gradually because I stick to it better. I will do some pilates tonight or tomorrow night.

Ab Ripper X

My husband does P90X and the ab workout is killer! I did it some this summer but I have done nothing since I injured my foot. Today I did Ab Ripper, which is 20 minutes. There are no crunches, it is all core work with no breaks. 349 ab exercises total! I was able to do that with out bothering my foot and then did about 30 push ups. It felt good to do something and I think it will feel good to be sore tomorrow!!

I ate 1240 calories today.
Breakfast - 1 piece of wheat toast, 1.5 scrambled eggs and 1/2 a turkey sausage patty
Lunch - Deli turkey sandwich on 100 calorie sandwich thin with Tillamook cheddar and lettuce, carrots and strawberries
Snack- 120 cal yogurt parfait and 2 dark chocolate hershey kisses
Dinner- Pioneer Woman's turkey tetrazzini.

I am hungry right now, so I may have some green tea. But I am really tired so I may just go to bed soon.

1325

My calories for today.
Breakfast - English muffin, 1 egg, 1 light string cheese
Lunch- Chick fil a. Diet Lemonade, 8 piece chicken nugget (they are small compared to MCD's), part of a medium fruit cup, and half a cup of chicken tortilla soup
Dinner - 2 hamburger sliders and a small salad with Paula Deen salad dressing (only 30 cal per T)
9 pm- 2 cups of green tea because I am hungry! Sweetened with stevia.

Not great, but not bad for the only day I will eat at a restaurant this week. That always kills me!

The Game Plan

I have been at a stand still since December 23rd (actually I was down to 165 and gained 2 pounds back).

I was eating around 1350 cal, so I have went down to 1250 this week. I am pretty hungry sticking to that. I have been drinking 2 cups of hot green tea when I get really hungry (which I just did).

I hurt my foot in October. I thought it was just a bad sprain (well the ER did) but I found out it was broken after I had an MRI last week. I see a specialist on Thursday, but it looks like I have to have a walking cast or something, so no working out, still. This is killing me!!! The weather has been nice, and I would love to go out and run on the weekends.

I am going to try to do some pilates, arms and abs this week and see how that goes.
I realized that I usually when I diet, I eat around 1400, but I am burning 300 a day working out, so I am going to need to eat even less than 1250 if I am not working out!

I was hoping to lose 8 pounds a month, but I think I am going to have to be happy with 5. That is what I lost after Kellen. So far, November was 8 pounds and December was 5. But then I gained back 3. I have lost one of those, but that means I need to lose 7 in January to stay on track!

Pictures after the baby

I swear I look fatter now than I did when I was pregnant! At least in the face. The first picture is of me and Lila on Mother's Day. I think she is about 6 weeks old. The 2nd picture was taken New Year's Eve and is awful! I almost didn't post it. I don't know if it is the angle, my shirt, the light, or what, but my face looks fatter than ever, even though I have lost 11 pounds since the first picture!!
I also discovered that night I have a gap in my front teeth, even though I have a permanent retainer. So I made an appt with my orthodontist to get my 3rd set of braces or retainers. I need to look at this pic every time I eat to kill my appetite!

A few pics

I posted a pic of me the day I found out I was pregnant, and how I looked at 41 weeks pregnant. I don't think those sweatpants could get any tighter!! I am on the way to the hospital, being unwillingly induced, when I have the black shirt on.

I'm back. And it is not pretty.

Or at least I'm not. But my baby girl, Lila, is!

I found out I was pregnant soon after my last post and proceeded to pack on 52ish pounds. This is in spite of tracking calories, 90 minute workouts until 32 weeks and crying in my doctor's office about it! After her delivery in March, I proceeded to swell up even more and only lost 12 pounds. Yes, 12! I breastfed until Lila was 7 1/2 months, and lost no weight, just like what happened with my first child. I have lost 11 pounds since Halloween, a few weeks before I weaned.

I weighed 190ish when I delivered, and am now down to 167. I weighed 166 when I delivered my first baby, geez. And I felt so fat after that. I currently live in a no picture zone, and I would like to have some pictures of me with my baby, so my goal is to lose everything by this summer.

My first goal is losing 29 pounds. That will put me at the weight I was when I got pregnant, 138. I would like to get down to 125, my ideal weight, so I would really like to lose another 42 pounds. But that number is a little daunting for me right now. I have the blogger app for my Ipod Touch, so I am going to try to update with my calories each day!!

I am enjoying starving and losing weight, instead of starving because I am pregnant and breastfeeding.!!