I'm back. And it is not pretty.

Or at least I'm not. But my baby girl, Lila, is!

I found out I was pregnant soon after my last post and proceeded to pack on 52ish pounds. This is in spite of tracking calories, 90 minute workouts until 32 weeks and crying in my doctor's office about it! After her delivery in March, I proceeded to swell up even more and only lost 12 pounds. Yes, 12! I breastfed until Lila was 7 1/2 months, and lost no weight, just like what happened with my first child. I have lost 11 pounds since Halloween, a few weeks before I weaned.

I weighed 190ish when I delivered, and am now down to 167. I weighed 166 when I delivered my first baby, geez. And I felt so fat after that. I currently live in a no picture zone, and I would like to have some pictures of me with my baby, so my goal is to lose everything by this summer.

My first goal is losing 29 pounds. That will put me at the weight I was when I got pregnant, 138. I would like to get down to 125, my ideal weight, so I would really like to lose another 42 pounds. But that number is a little daunting for me right now. I have the blogger app for my Ipod Touch, so I am going to try to update with my calories each day!!

I am enjoying starving and losing weight, instead of starving because I am pregnant and breastfeeding.!!