I gotta stop weighing myself everyday!

In the mornings I will wake up and "feel" like I have lost weight, but this week I have not! I am up to 169 despite the great job I did dieting this week. Then I get discouraged that I will be fat forever. My period should start tomorrow,so I know I am just bloated. I am actually proud of myself for not giving in to my usual cravings of chips and brownies. My food for today should come in at 1200 or 1250 calories. I will let you know tomorrow.:) So far- Breakfast: Trader Joe's Steelcut oatmeal with brownsugar Lunch: Turkey sandwich on 100 calories sandwich thin and strawberries. Dinner will be white chicken chili and tortilla chips. I should be left with 400 calories for snacks, so I will probably have a yogurt parfait and hot cocoa or homemade mocha at some point. I really want to lower my calories down to 1200 this month, but I am just getting used to 1250. I try to lower gradually because I stick to it better. I will do some pilates tonight or tomorrow night.

Ab Ripper X

My husband does P90X and the ab workout is killer! I did it some this summer but I have done nothing since I injured my foot. Today I did Ab Ripper, which is 20 minutes. There are no crunches, it is all core work with no breaks. 349 ab exercises total! I was able to do that with out bothering my foot and then did about 30 push ups. It felt good to do something and I think it will feel good to be sore tomorrow!!

I ate 1240 calories today.
Breakfast - 1 piece of wheat toast, 1.5 scrambled eggs and 1/2 a turkey sausage patty
Lunch - Deli turkey sandwich on 100 calorie sandwich thin with Tillamook cheddar and lettuce, carrots and strawberries
Snack- 120 cal yogurt parfait and 2 dark chocolate hershey kisses
Dinner- Pioneer Woman's turkey tetrazzini.

I am hungry right now, so I may have some green tea. But I am really tired so I may just go to bed soon.

1325

My calories for today.
Breakfast - English muffin, 1 egg, 1 light string cheese
Lunch- Chick fil a. Diet Lemonade, 8 piece chicken nugget (they are small compared to MCD's), part of a medium fruit cup, and half a cup of chicken tortilla soup
Dinner - 2 hamburger sliders and a small salad with Paula Deen salad dressing (only 30 cal per T)
9 pm- 2 cups of green tea because I am hungry! Sweetened with stevia.

Not great, but not bad for the only day I will eat at a restaurant this week. That always kills me!

The Game Plan

I have been at a stand still since December 23rd (actually I was down to 165 and gained 2 pounds back).

I was eating around 1350 cal, so I have went down to 1250 this week. I am pretty hungry sticking to that. I have been drinking 2 cups of hot green tea when I get really hungry (which I just did).

I hurt my foot in October. I thought it was just a bad sprain (well the ER did) but I found out it was broken after I had an MRI last week. I see a specialist on Thursday, but it looks like I have to have a walking cast or something, so no working out, still. This is killing me!!! The weather has been nice, and I would love to go out and run on the weekends.

I am going to try to do some pilates, arms and abs this week and see how that goes.
I realized that I usually when I diet, I eat around 1400, but I am burning 300 a day working out, so I am going to need to eat even less than 1250 if I am not working out!

I was hoping to lose 8 pounds a month, but I think I am going to have to be happy with 5. That is what I lost after Kellen. So far, November was 8 pounds and December was 5. But then I gained back 3. I have lost one of those, but that means I need to lose 7 in January to stay on track!

Pictures after the baby

I swear I look fatter now than I did when I was pregnant! At least in the face. The first picture is of me and Lila on Mother's Day. I think she is about 6 weeks old. The 2nd picture was taken New Year's Eve and is awful! I almost didn't post it. I don't know if it is the angle, my shirt, the light, or what, but my face looks fatter than ever, even though I have lost 11 pounds since the first picture!!
I also discovered that night I have a gap in my front teeth, even though I have a permanent retainer. So I made an appt with my orthodontist to get my 3rd set of braces or retainers. I need to look at this pic every time I eat to kill my appetite!

A few pics

I posted a pic of me the day I found out I was pregnant, and how I looked at 41 weeks pregnant. I don't think those sweatpants could get any tighter!! I am on the way to the hospital, being unwillingly induced, when I have the black shirt on.

I'm back. And it is not pretty.

Or at least I'm not. But my baby girl, Lila, is!

I found out I was pregnant soon after my last post and proceeded to pack on 52ish pounds. This is in spite of tracking calories, 90 minute workouts until 32 weeks and crying in my doctor's office about it! After her delivery in March, I proceeded to swell up even more and only lost 12 pounds. Yes, 12! I breastfed until Lila was 7 1/2 months, and lost no weight, just like what happened with my first child. I have lost 11 pounds since Halloween, a few weeks before I weaned.

I weighed 190ish when I delivered, and am now down to 167. I weighed 166 when I delivered my first baby, geez. And I felt so fat after that. I currently live in a no picture zone, and I would like to have some pictures of me with my baby, so my goal is to lose everything by this summer.

My first goal is losing 29 pounds. That will put me at the weight I was when I got pregnant, 138. I would like to get down to 125, my ideal weight, so I would really like to lose another 42 pounds. But that number is a little daunting for me right now. I have the blogger app for my Ipod Touch, so I am going to try to update with my calories each day!!

I am enjoying starving and losing weight, instead of starving because I am pregnant and breastfeeding.!!